May 31, 2010 - 10:30 PM
I've become a drifter. I suppose Eugene still holds the majority of my stuff, but my life is in transit at the moment. In the last five days I've been in Eugene, Phoenix, Portland, and now I am finally back in Eugene. In less than a week I will be in Tulsa. For the first time I can remember, it feels like I don't have a home.
At the moment, I am in the process of shipping all my personal belongings back to Phoenix for the summer. I will be in Phoenix for five weeks starting June 14th for Teach For America training, and it is helpful that my parents can store my stuff while I am there. In that respect, I feel like my life is split between Eugene and Phoenix because my belongings are in both places. However, neither feels like home because I will leave Eugene for good in two weeks, and Phoenix is just a temporary home (even though I did grow up there for 18 years and I suppose it is technically my home address).
Maybe I will find a sense of place more easily when I finally visit my new "home" in Tulsa next Sunday. At long last, I will meet my fellow corps members Teaching For America in Tulsa and hopefully figure out my living situation for the next year. As it stands, it's a weird feeling having an abstract idea of where I'll be living and whom I will be living with in Tulsa. I drove through Oklahoma once when I was 6 on a family road trip, so I don't have much recollection of Tulsa. I am anxious to see my new city and start finding some roots.
For the next week, at the very least, my life will continue to be split among different locales. I have to focus on finishing classes in Eugene and enjoying the town for one last go, but I will continue to ship boxes home and be thinking ahead to next weekend when I will take off for Tulsa. It's frustrating and unsettling to be in flux, but it's exciting at the same time. This is the first time in my life where I have not had roots in one place, and it is probably going to be the last time I will feel this unrootedness for awhile. I'll enjoy the journey while it lasts because in two short months I will be settled into a full-time job. Until then, I'll enjoy being on the move.