Senioritis

Lynae N.

May 9, 2010 - 9:19 PM

Six years of college straight out of high school. . . Counting Kindegarden, I have been in school now for 19 years straight. I'm 24 years old which means I have spent the vast majority of my existence being a student. This is a major part of my identity and looking at the overwhelmingly quick end to my academic career is both incredibly exciting and desperately sad. I'm trying to push through the last few weeks like also making the time last.

I have a massive case of senioritis to top off all my conflicting emotions about being done with school. I am more than happy to see clients, but showing up for class and all other assignments and readings feel like a joke. Everything feels so insignificant in comparison to the hurdle I've just jumped. Why oh why can't the last four weeks of classes consist of hanging out with my friends and my clients? I'm so over classes it's not even funny.

This is a strange feeling for me because I love to learn and I've never felt so ok with not being 125% on top of things and ahead of the game. I really want to just hurry up and finish everything else I need to get done this term but I'm finding myself more and more passing on homework for any distraction I can find. My goal is to step out of this laziness for this one week and knock all of my work out so I can enjoy my rest without lingering guilt.

I can't be too hard on myself though, after 19 years of school I think I've earned the right to have a week or two of not caring about anything related to school. So this is senioritis huh? I'm kinda enjoying it. Only 4 more weeks of class. . . I can do this!