Alone?

Leah S.

November 16, 2009 - 9:32 PM

On the go. That is me. That is the best description of me I can give you right now. I spend three days (maybe four) lying around to get better and then spent three whole days trying to catch up. I finally did it today. Now I have to keep going at this pace to get ahead on homework (I know all you out there are thinking, what a geek). Maybe I am. I enjoy school, it's the only thing in life I have ever been really good at (again I know it's sad, but hey it's who I am). The thing is I leave Saturday morning (have to be at PDX at 3am!) for a 6am flight to Mexico. That's right. I worked my hiney off this summer and I get a five day stay in a resort in Cancun, Mexico. I'm super stoked. I just can't wait for it with all the running I have been doing. It's on the go to catch up, now it's on the go to get ahead. I don't wish to spend another week trying to catch up on just a few days.

Well my whole point of this blog was for a bit of advice. You see being in college is scary. It's taken me until my second year to realize and admit this to myself (and now all of my viewers). As much as you don't want to admit it, it is totally true. You have to be on your own (I know you're going yeah? What's the big deal; I can't wait). Well I couldn't wait either. I'm totally happy to be away from my house too. It has allowed me to get away from things I don't want to be around and has allowed me to grow as a person. There are tough times though and all you will want most desperately is your family. It's hard to realize they are there for you when they are so far away (if you don't live in Eugene of course). I decided I don't like the way my life is going and that I was going to do what I can to change it. It is very scary. I have had a lot of ups, and just as many downs to match. I don't like the back and forth, but it's a part of college I think. It's part of figuring out who you are. I just wanted to let you all know that it will happen to you too. You are not alone, even though sometimes it will feel like it. I'm not going to lie, college is not the best place for finding the tons of supportive friends (or acquaintances) you had back home. College kids are more interested in themselves and helping/finding themselves then they are there to support you during troubled times. That is not to say that you will not find some of your best friends here, but it will be tough. I just wanted to let you know. It's scary, tough, and you will hate it (I guarantee it). It is worth it though. Just keep in mind that you are never alone. That everyone else here is going through similar problems.

Well that is all the advice I have for now. I want to try and get ahead on some more homework or figure out classes for next term. So until next time...